Monday, October 8, 2007

Confessions of an internet addict!!

I just discovered that the sweet little girl I have been chatting on the net for hours together exists right in my neighborhood!!!

The other day. . .
we had a formal get together in the apartments on the occasion of ganesh chaturthi . . . and I was out in my dark room. . .
doing all the normal stuff - orkut, yahoo, blogger. . .

Well even now my mom is screaming as i scribble down this post!
Its not that she has any problems with me hanging around in this virtual world but. . .
it's just she feels a little insecure that her son is drifting away. . . from her. . .from himself!

Yeah even I am one of the guys who has caught up with this addiction!

Hours together on the net. . . like one has dedicated one's self wholly to this demon called "internet".

We long for these so called "online friends" but seldom think about our real friends!

Even people who know each other for real talk on the internet as if they were long last friends or have known each other for years now!
But when it comes to one on one . . . in the real life. . . .seldom even eyes are met and rarely smiles exchanged!
But why?

The possible answer is maybe we are not what we pose in the virtual world to be! And to hide this very fact we don't respond ourselves to our social instincts!

And there are still many more reasons too. . . .

My female counterparts have a very interesting answer!

One girl once told me she couldn't talk to me before others because she felt I was not like her in the real life!
She was this homely, studious, daddy's girl and I was a punk, getting wasted all the time!!
Wooooh!

But in the virtual world well. . . .
I can alter my image. . .
Play any role. . .
Be anyone I want. . .

Now the bottom line is . . . by doing all this. . .am I losing my original self?
Am I trying to pretend something. . . .
Have I lost my originality?
Is my virtual self overtaking the "real me"?

Well questions do ponder sometimes but are readily dismissed by the instinctive response of the "other part of me" telling my entity . . . .

"what the fuck! Just chill and enjoy your damn life. Don't stress your little brain!"

27 comments:

viyoma said...

yes 100% i agree to this...hav been experiencing this for quite sometime...the net addiction is bad yet not able to get ovet it...kya karen! we are victims of Info Technology!

matty said...

humm ... welcome to the league my dear friend!!

rOhit said...

so bloody true man.. :)
this net addiction plays a vital part in ruining my life.. still m nt affectd and njoyin it d same way as previous.. :D

Rishikesh Sinha said...

i was thinking to write this only piece but it was a nice reading wht is going on ur end.

not to say about others. adding me all my bros are net addicted. we dont talk and we dont smile ..

really u oozed out what is going on in the present day world of net.

we have forgetten our real friends.

Supernova said...

Bulls eye!
Same realization stuck me few days back wen my school frnds screamed dat dey rarely hear from me n i calmly replied, "U ppl r nvr online yaar" lolz:D
To add to it all, im in online industry so internet addiction is a pre-requisite for my job:)

KSR said...

I don't understand what makes people requiring a clown under the hidden covers of net. I'm able to be myself both with my real friends, as well as with my online friends without any difficulty!

As for as sitting in front of computer for long hours is concerned, I wont call it as addiction. Virtual world has become part of our life, just like we can't live without fan. Do we say we are addicted to fan?

Novice Academician said...

I don't understand what makes people requiring a clown under the hidden covers of net. I'm able to be myself both with my real friends, as well as with my online friends without any difficulty!

As for as sitting in front of computer for long hours is concerned, I wont call it as addiction. Virtual world has become part of our life, just like we can't live without fan. Do we say we are addicted to fan?

(It was me who posted this comment as ksr258, which is my orkut id. You may delete the comment posted as ksr258 and publish this one instead, as my blogger profile is registered only to this id)

matty said...

well!
maybe you are just able to balance it greatly!
as for a guy like me...
it's an "addiction" !
the balance has been broken loong ago for me!
i don't talk to my mom!
studies have taken a back seat; even as i scribble down this post I know i got an exam tomorrow! But still my hands won't stop typing and my mind won't come out of my virtual self!
But still the most important thing is I can be that which I always wanted to be in this virtual world but in the real world.... i may not!

Rajeev said...

splendid!
couldnt have said it better!
Internet sure is addictive, but I guess im bored of it now!
been using it for a looong time now! :P
nice blog!

peace & love
Jeevy

Confusion Confounded said...

alooha :)
very true.. i realised the same thng a few months back. My net was disconnected for sum reason and i felt lost actly i had no clue hw to spend my day..

matty said...

see! Now thats what I am saying!
It's like we can't live without this internet!
Your net was disconnected; you could done so many things in between but its just that you can't even think of any other thing bcoz you are an "addict".
So am I!

the cloud with the bronze lining said...

hey nice writin.. keep it up.. n ur rite.. jus njoy lyf

whizkid said...

tell me about it dude... hahaha....

thou, i am never addicted... but use it to the max productively :)

matty said...

well guess i will have to say it depends how you really define your "productivity"!
For me blogging is pleasure; its my passion!
But still more of it decreases my efficiency and productivity in other areas.....
Hope you got the point!!

CuppajavaMattiz said...

Hey your name is Matty? Is that adopted or virtual. Coz My Name Is Matty!!! And I thought I was the only one with that name in this part of the world :-|
If so do drop me a mail and let the two Mattiz communicate,
Just curious :-)
mattyj@rediffmail.com

Ankit Gupta said...

the idea of multiple identity strikes all....bcoz u hav a change (or rather given another chance) to become some other person, to create a different persona all togeether. U capitalize on this...n bang!! njoy it for a few days....

but whts next, at some place TRUTH will stop this hallucination...so come back to real world

be urself, be happy

Cheers
Ankit

matty said...

thanx ankit...
well thats exactly what i am feeling now but i hope to come out of it soon!

raul said...

nice adiction...but y ashamed of it?
isnt it good to gettin addicted to somethin where you can talk and laugh to so many ppl at once and also share your openions..(p.s.. addict of everything sayd something like this and excapes)

but dude...i dont use a kinda another image...i use my own

matty said...

well the point is certainly not about being ashamed of!!
I actually love it in here...
and to be frank I am the "real me" here..
but out there hell lot of things influence me...
I am not able to be just myself..
The most i can do is strike a balance between the two!

Jiggs said...

man man man
this is soooo true
we kinda lost in touch with the so called real world
call it a boon or a curse

Jiggs said...

btw added u in my blogroll
cheers
keep up the good work

matty said...

thanx jiggs!!
it was very nice of you!

purvabhatia said...

Hey i have been thinking of writing a post about this from quite some time...... It's uncanny to see people hestitate one on one but talk like greatest of buddies online! wonder where we are heading!

Nice blogspace

matty said...

yeah..
and especially girls...
well still trying to figure out why!
may its their psychology ...
humm no idea...

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