I just discovered that the sweet little girl I have been chatting on the net for hours together exists right in my neighborhood!!!
The other day. . .
we had a formal get together in the apartments on the occasion of ganesh chaturthi . . . and I was out in my dark room. . .
doing all the normal stuff - orkut, yahoo, blogger. . .
Well even now my mom is screaming as i scribble down this post!
Its not that she has any problems with me hanging around in this virtual world but. . .
it's just she feels a little insecure that her son is drifting away. . . from her. . .from himself!
Yeah even I am one of the guys who has caught up with this addiction!
Hours together on the net. . . like one has dedicated one's self wholly to this demon called "internet".
We long for these so called "online friends" but seldom think about our real friends!
Even people who know each other for real talk on the internet as if they were long last friends or have known each other for years now!
But when it comes to one on one . . . in the real life. . . .seldom even eyes are met and rarely smiles exchanged!
The possible answer is maybe we are not what we pose in the virtual world to be! And to hide this very fact we don't respond ourselves to our social instincts!
And there are still many more reasons too. . . .
My female counterparts have a very interesting answer!
One girl once told me she couldn't talk to me before others because she felt I was not like her in the real life!
She was this homely, studious, daddy's girl and I was a punk, getting wasted all the time!!
But in the virtual world well. . . .
I can alter my image. . .
Play any role. . .
Be anyone I want. . .
Now the bottom line is . . . by doing all this. . .am I losing my original self?
Am I trying to pretend something. . . .
Have I lost my originality?
Is my virtual self overtaking the "real me"?
Well questions do ponder sometimes but are readily dismissed by the instinctive response of the "other part of me" telling my entity . . . .
"what the fuck! Just chill and enjoy your damn life. Don't stress your little brain!"